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Before you say or do something, try to understand what is the mental state that is causing you to say or do it. And judge yourself. Are you proud of it? Only if your answer is yes, should you proceed.

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Funny, Why

One can't both take this world seriously and remain happy at the same time.

An insight into Void

Void is a relative matter. Something can be void only in respect to a particular thing. A room can be void of air, but there can be light. A space can be void of matter, but can have energy field. To say something is void, one must specify what it is void of. Since there no global finite list of all things, there can not be any space or anything that is completely void. There will always be something that it is not void of.

An empty space in this universe is void of many things including matter, and energy (if we relax the quantum fluctuations). But it is not void of space for example. Similarly whatever was before big bang or is outside the scope of this universe is void of space and time as well. And that's pretty much the last two things we can think of releasing from our idea of something at least being there. But since we do not have a global list of all possible things, that outside of universe is not void of everything. There could be something in there and still be counted as perfectly void for our world.

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Out of range

Sometimes a big number in computer gets truncated due to lack of space and represented as a negative number. A byte can't hold all integers.

Take away: I can't be recruited by everyone.

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Core melt down

As of now, the core is non-existent. Wiped out completely.
Too many disasters. Too many things have gone wrong.
I can trust no one.

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Negativity

We like to piece together information into a consistent story or fit it into a theory. Now, this theory may not necessarily correlate with the reality completely. In other words, the theory may not be correct completely.

This has an interesting adverse effect when we try to absorb a negative piece of information into our model. Often the whole theory that comes out of this, is full of bad and negative suggestion. One piece of information can not necessarily be the outcome of a total negative story only. So there we miss.

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I am a Super-Hero!

And my special power is - I have a diamond core!

Yes!

Yes! Yess!! Yesss!!!

What counts?

What to do now

Really tired. Lost and hopeless. I just want it to end.

Surviving in Hell

For people I have cared and done so much, in reply I got nothing but deception, lies, hurt, betrayal and pretty much everything in this category.

Whether afterlife is true or not, it is evidently seen that this world is not where justice prevails.

I am alone. Not because I am stranded in an unpopulated area. But because, there is nothing even remotely close to comfort my heart. The ugliness and cruelty have engulfed the surrounding. Sincerity is a joke and honesty is vulnerability. I have waited long and hard. Given benefits of doubts to every possible ways. But how could I find something, that does not exist? As long as they can see kindness and honesty in me, they will harm me in every ruthless ways. They will keep coming back until I stop them. The hope for a friend, a love is only going to drag me down deeper into the trap. Where the hyenas are waiting to tear apart the flesh from the bones. This is a hell. A hell that deceives in its looks. But it sure is, what it is.

This toy made me happy

Bought myself a gift last Friday. It's called a 2013 BMW x3. I am already in love with this car. For more info see the the youtube video description at the following location. Thanks!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lU50A74fQVg&list=UUYdIVceVVHQ0-GjDTRKAKEQ&index=1&feature=plcp

Zeitgeist

1. Bigger picture, end goal
2. Take care of self
3. Bold, simple
4. Don't worry, Do act.
5. Happiness is for Now

Update

Survival and upholding of principles are mutually exclusive.

Garbage

Wastes a lot of time. A lot, really.

A delusion and the dreams

Eyes are there but to keep you in delusion. Because I see a lot better when I close them. Some people call it dreams. For me it's as close to the reality as I could ever get to; in this world anyway.

The biggest mystery about life is you have to stop doing whatever sheet that you are doing to wake up. Wake up to see reality. That is all around you but you have never seen before.

Everyday

The ice just got thinner. It's been thinning all the time.

Should I

Break the barrier of morality?

Forbidden truth

Nobody wants to hear the truth that I know. And no one wants to speak the truths that I want to hear.

Fair enough?

Every religion on earth is at least as stupid as it appears to the followers of the other religions.

2012

There is one, and only one goal.

Death

I didn't exist before. It's alright.

Must stop

Continually being deceived by the appearances.

I Wonder How

And you blame me for loosing all respect for the human race?

I Challenge You

My fate has embarrassed me, insulted me, made a mockery of me. It has put in me places where I do not deserve to be.

But I have respect for who I have become. I have never insulted my understanding of righteousness. I have never felt I have failed to keep my standards.

I am a good man. And things happened to me that I do not deserve. If there is someone who claims to be the judge of our actions, I want to see how this is dealt with. You can't trick me. I know in my heart what the truth is. You can't cheat there. No, you really can't.

Love

Love is one of the most overrated concepts of all. It's rooted on physical desire. There is in fact, very little more to it, if any.

Standing close to the truth

When the game is over, the crowd is gone, dawn turned to darkness, soul has returned home and you are with yourself again, like it always has been - what you have is the truth, immutable.

The Secret & the echo

I have to decode it. I will decode it.

When?

Obviously this is not enough to break through the shell. But when will it be?

For Nothing

Strange that the possibility of non-existence after death doesn't sound that much disturbing any more. It sounds peaceful.

What I want the most

I need to bring justice to this world.

Unforgivable

If you exist, you have broken my heart in the worst possible ways. I can't forget or forgive. There is simply no acceptable explanation for what has happened.