The Tension

A problem can not be solved by the same conscious that has created it.
A. Einstein.

Therefore, I can't expect any solution from other human beings. They share the same dilemma and predicament.

I have to remind myself every moment, every day, again and again - I am alone and on my own. There is nothing more important than to survive and move on. The future is unknown. But that's where we are heading.

Two Findings

Have to minimize or remove dependencies of my happiness on the choice of other people.

Not all paths are solvable. But they might be avoidable.

Dark

It's incomprehensibly complicated.

Now

Critical decision. Am I up to it?

In the big pit

Permanent answer to a temporary problem.
But it's not really temporary. At least doesn't seem that way, right now.

Dreams

Trying to catch my dreams. But before I could, my dreams caught me.

Expendible

My life is valued nothing to nature.

Confusion.

What is stopping me to end this?

Detour

Even if I can't solve this problem, I must survive.
I can't end life in confusion.

Fundamentals

I must remain physically well.
Must not cause harm to self.
And have to stay focused.

Miles to go before I sleep.