How deep is the delusion?

Length of life is limited. Just hang on and it will be over.

Find out what are the priorities. And focus on those.

Screen out thoughts. Give priority to the ones that are more likely to affect the future.

Another day of

unsuccessful search.

This is a continuation of intense uncertainty and suffering. There is no concrate reason for hope. All point to a dull and dark end. Truth, is it?

Inside the Maze

Back to square one. Have I progressed even a bit?

Now

Or may be it 'is' over. May be it never really was there.

Game

This isn't over yet. I must survive.

Prediction

It's been a painful life. And in all likelihood, it's looking to get nothing bur worse.

The Battles

This is a battle. Fight it.
Do not give in to tiredness.
Comfortable decisions are not necessarily the optimal ones.
Decisions taken in frustrations are big mistakes.

Lessons from Life

There is a fine line beyond which politeness ceases to be your advantage; to the point of becoming a serious problem.

Understanding Helps

A complete understanding of the situation, removes all the emotions out of it.

Life in this Dirty World

Should I trust any one ever again?

On My Own

The biggest illusion is the feeling that I am not alone.

Well, there is company. But that is only hostile.

Waves

Do not ride on the waves of emotion. They will overwhelm you, distract you and probably drown you in the end. You can't control it. Just don't ride on it.

Without Doubt

Forgive. But do not forget. The ability to remember was given because we need it.

The Human Condition

The stronger you get attached to, the more painful it gets to detach from.

The perception of death to us, living beings, are funny - for life is but a process of preparing for death. A sequence of events leading to the detachment of self from this illusion. What is visible and tangible is illusion. And the truth is unseen. Such is the condition of existence.

The Prime Directive

I am in idealist. I can accept only a perfect ending. Everything must wrap up in concord. There can be nothing short, nothing extra. Nobody can be left out of this perfect ending. A perfect ending is happy. Happiness must include everyone and everything.

Last Man Standing

I will do it.

The Worst of Crimes

I think I have some idea now, why being ungrateful (Kafeer) is a matter of so much detestation by Allah. It sure is heinous.

Count down begins now

100 days and counting.

Can We Be Happy

http://www.philosophynow.org/issue80/Can_We_Be_Happy

How long

Evidence points to no justice. How long should I wait?

Long Sleep

Things are dark and slippery, I don't know how far it is.

The Tension

A problem can not be solved by the same conscious that has created it.
A. Einstein.

Therefore, I can't expect any solution from other human beings. They share the same dilemma and predicament.

I have to remind myself every moment, every day, again and again - I am alone and on my own. There is nothing more important than to survive and move on. The future is unknown. But that's where we are heading.

Two Findings

Have to minimize or remove dependencies of my happiness on the choice of other people.

Not all paths are solvable. But they might be avoidable.

Dark

It's incomprehensibly complicated.

Now

Critical decision. Am I up to it?

In the big pit

Permanent answer to a temporary problem.
But it's not really temporary. At least doesn't seem that way, right now.

Dreams

Trying to catch my dreams. But before I could, my dreams caught me.

Expendible

My life is valued nothing to nature.

Confusion.

What is stopping me to end this?

Detour

Even if I can't solve this problem, I must survive.
I can't end life in confusion.

Fundamentals

I must remain physically well.
Must not cause harm to self.
And have to stay focused.

Miles to go before I sleep.

Dreams and Reality

The distance is closing in.

A very hard question

Can I save myself from this?

Nothing is new

I don't know anything any longer. The confusions have engulfed completely. There is no hope, no guarantee of anything whatsoever. I am alone. And it's not that only I am alone. But everyone is.

Is Life a Test?

By 'test', what I understand is: arranging a set of events without the exact knowledge of the outcome. This calls for an entity who is 'testing' and the subject being tested. The question I have is, if life really was a test then who that 'tester' would be.

Now from a spiritual/religions point of view, if the tester is God, then it indicates God has planned something for which God does not know the results of. How likeable is that? Not sure.

To me, however, a more acceptable term for life is, a learning experience. That we could treat past experience to improve ourselves. It's not just a test, but the real deal. We are actually passing through the real world, where things are not virtual and experimental. But one time and very real. The outcome is also instant and real. There is no delayed judgment, everything that is supposed to happen is already happening.

I hope I made some sense. :)

This is the story of My life - Prelude

Happiness in everyday life is result of distraction and delusion. Distraction does not stay forever and this is why we need to continue to seek happiness, even though we have apparently been there already. The bigger the distraction, the permanent the happiness appears before us. But all delusions are temporary in the end and they all dry out. Most of us spend our enrtire life jumping from one distraction to the next, everytime getting just a glimpse of happiness (if lucky) but never quite getting what we truly want - a consistent, timeless realization of self and its real purpose of existence.

Distractions of this world are extremely hard to deal with. Most people do not even get trhough the veneer of it - which is mostly psychological barriers. We bounce our goal back and forth between career, health, money or other possessions. These are actually some of the most stable delusions to fall into. (Of course they are delusions after all and bound to loose meaning sooner or later). But there are even worse distractions that even in the scale of wordly (i.e. temporary) standard, not very wise.

The very small fraction of people who do identify this first level of distraction can not escape the next one - the physical reality. The existence of our body and the way we are attached to it, is the hardest delusion to overcome. It is so hard that even after we are given direct knowledge of its nature, we still can't help it. It is the hardest of all. The greatest mystery of our life.

I have quit job. All my efforts in life till now is in vein.

The Evidence

What if, this universe was, not created by an all powerful loving God - but by a most uncaring and cruel evil, that merely plays with its creation.
I am just asking, because the evidence is so in front of us. Because, it could very well be the truth, the explanation for all sufferings. If we choose to ignore the facts and live in a paradise of our imagination, we perhaps could. But for how long.
The truth burns through.
And it gets out. And then it burns. Real bad.

Essential Strategies

1. The most logical thing is always the thing to do.
2. Never fall into the trap of morality.
3. All things living or non-living, are potentially my enemy.
4. Never trust enemies.
5. Never expect favorable actions from enemies.
6. Eliminate enemies.

The Game of the Outlaws

I guessed it right, but I still couldn't avoid it.
I trusted people. One of the surest ways to fail.

Each and every single creature or entity on this world is potentially my enemy.
There is just one simple rule for this game of life: "Survive".

I have to do exactly that. Nothing less. And more imporantly nothing more.

I have to survive, at the expense of anything, everything.

Sounds reasonable

"You have to believe in yourself
when no one else does.
That's what makes you a winner."
- Venus Williams

Most Intriguing, Interesting

1. Is the world around you real in the same level as you are. Or is it a simulation or illusion.

2. Can one cause something to come to existence. Can you cause something to go out of existence.

3. Why anything exists at all. Why there are more than one existence. What separates something from other things.

Back to the drawing board

I've almost given up hope.
The most fundamental expectations from life are broken.
This world does not run by the principles I thought it did.
I'm Doomed & back to the drawing board.

Freedom, Mine

I let go. I let go completely.
I buy my freedom back. My life back.
At the expense of this day, I get my happiness back.

I win. I win again.
I win my freedom back again.
For it's mine. Earnestly mine.

Core updates

There is nobody to blame. Earthly or super-natural.

The hope for justice is flawed and unrealistic.

Accepting the reality is the minimum requirement for a happy existence.

Synesthesia

It's something we have all felt and experienced at some point of our life. Our brain is an interconnected network of billions of neurons. These connections do not have a sharp boundary across regions that serve totally different functionalities. Hence it is only natural to experience phenomenon like synesthesia where one type of perception (like smell for example) could excite feelings of another seemingly unrelated memories of perception (like a vision).

Antimnatter

News: CERN Scientists Trap Antimatter for Almost 17 Minutes

Is this the beginning of a new era of freedom from energy lmmitations? Almost all physical limits today are one way or other tied to the fact that energy is expensive. "Matter antimatter" based engines could really be the next big step to this regard.

1:50 pm, June 1, 2011

Norcross, GA.

Explanation of David Copperfield's illusion (Death Saw)

(My explanation is below)



There are 2 persons. The other half of each of their body is hidden by the legs of the table/platform. To test my guess, I predicted that he can't cut or reattach his body without closing the box because otherwise it would be very hard for the other person to come and go without us noticing. And you can see, my prediction is right.

Grey

I was once, so happy.

I have to know

Why did this happen to me?

Just another proof that this is not a fair world.

Why do I expect fairness or justice? Is it a wise thing to expect?

If not, how can I get rid of this expectation?

How can I accept bitter reality?

How do I know what is in my control and what is not?

Why are you doing this to me?

When in my life

I'm on my way from misery to happiness today
I'm on my way from misery to happiness today
I'm on my way to what I want from this world
And years from now you'll make it to the next world
And everything that you receive up yonder
Is what you gave to me the day I wandered

I took a right, I took a right turning yesterday
I took a right, I took a right turning yesterday
I took the road that brought me to your home town
I took the bus to streets that I could walk down
I walked the streets to find the one I'd looked for
I climbed the stair that led me to your front door

And now that I don't want for anthing
I'd have Al Jolson sing "I'm sitting on top of the world"

I'll do my best, I'll do my best to do the best I can
I'll do my best, I'll do my best to do the best I can
To keep my feet from jumping from the ground dear
To keep my heart from jumping through my mouth dear
To keep the past, the past and not the present
To try and learn when you teach me a lesson

And now that I don't want for anything
I'd have Al Jolson sing "I'm sitting on top of the world".

Mystery of mysteries

The biggest mysteries are never any mysteries at all.
The greatest mystery of nature is, there is nothing mysterious about anything in the end. It entails everything in its emptiness. Wraps up a whole world in void.

The wind of change

It's changing right before my very eyes. Fading away into the fog of past, never to be found again.

Nothing is same.

O Fortuna

I will come out. Victorious.

Hahahaha

Hahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahha.........

Frozen

Nothing stays.

Rare

Couldn't find a good human being.

When quiting is ok

I quit. Because it's better to quit one thing to keep from quiting everything else.

Clarity in the Fog

This existence of ours, and the experience of life as a whole, is very vague at the best, if not completely obscure.

Amidst this unendingly confusing entanglement, there might be, however, couple of truths that manage to hold consistently enough.

The first of them is - everything we experience is transient. All things have an expiry date.

Slippery

Trying to capture an idea with words is like trying to run on slippery ice wearing flat shoes.

Because neither our concepts, nor our words are exact. And yet we spend our entire life doing exactly that, while arguing over definitions of things that are only abstractions in the first place, with words that are even more vague.

Whoever you are, please help me get through this. This is really unbearable.

Truth about justice

Justice is not the prevailing standard. Let's not pretend so.

Remember

Divergent thinking

Passion


-Autonomy
-Mastery
-Purpose

Remember

Divergent thinking

Passion


-Autonomy
-Mastery
-Purpose

In Life

There is one thing we don't have much to waste - time.

My Freedom

If I have to compete against luck, so shall I. This is my life, and this is going to happen my way.

Another Pearl

Ethics is a serious drawback.

Now

Absolutely alone.

blurry

making sense collapse on itself
nothing is there when we go deep enough

again and again it goes
nearing death

all tangled up, smoky and dreamy
cant wake up
sleeping thousand times
trying
blurred

what gives, rush, impulses drive
only going into deeper coma
inescapable

Why

I sacrificed so much. Why couldn't they return even a fraction of it, even if not by sacrificing, but at least by showing the smallest amount of appreciation?

Even if I overlook my own happiness, what is gained by them after all? It really didn't have to be like this. Or may be it doesn't really affect them so much as it affects me.

Am I so much in delusion? Can I ever wake up?

Ok

"Only those who dare to fail greatly
can ever achieve greatly."
- Robert F. Kennedy

Didn't I say so already

There are lots of ways of being miserable, but there's only one way of being comfortable, and that is to stop running round after happiness. If you make up your mind not to be happy there's no reason why you shouldn't have a fairly good time.

- Edith Wharton

Like it

We should be taught not to wait for inspiration to start a thing. Action always generates inspiration. Inspiration seldom generates action.
- Frank Tibolt
All human situations have their inconveniences. We feel those of the present but neither see nor feel those of the future; and hence we often make troublesome changes without amendment, and frequently for the worse.
- Benjamin Franklin

Hard

Why cant I find a solution?
What is the real issue?

Wake up and look around

Contrary to what many scientists say, hell is very real. We are living in it.

How much

O I love mathematics.
But do I love enough.

Rock n Roll

I am all I need. There is no good in looking outside.
All sorts of human communication corrupt happiness.

I think I agree

"Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success.
If you love what you are doing, you will be successful."
- Albert Schweitzer

Can I

I am almost failing. Tantalizingly close.

Preparation

"One important key to success is self-confidence. An important key to self-confidence is preparation."
- Arthur Ashe

QQ

"If you want to be happy, set a goal that commands your thoughts, liberates your energy, and inspires your hopes."
- Andrew Carnegie

QQ

"Always make a total effort, even when the odds are against you."
- Arnold Palmer

Life in a Dream

I live in my dreams. They are real.

I think this one is useful

What we think, or what we know, or what we believe is, in the end, of little consequence. The only consequence is what we do.
- John Ruskin

Far

It takes a life-time to understand life.

QQ

"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing."
- Helen Keller

Summary

A hope without reason, can cause an inescapable suffering.

Void

Nature is not kind. It's not cruel either. It just doesn't care.

Kick 1

Wake up.

QQ

We forfeit three-fourths of ourselves in order to be like other people.
- Arthur Schopenhauer

Women want mediocre men, and men are working hard to become as mediocre as possible.
- Margaret Mead

Looking back

I lived a good life. Yes, I did.

QQ

"It's time to start living the life
you've imagined"
- Henry James

Delusion

I am still not awake. This is very painful.

QQ

"Never give up, never, never give up."
- Winston Churchill