Understanding. Does it help?

Up until now, for all these I've seen and understood, it would be safe to say, to look for any particular goal, or meaning of this reality is a misleading journey. There is no bias towards either good or evil. There is no insurance of justice or kindness or anything. Neither good nor bad. It's just a colorless, biasless, void. It becomes only equally complete to include the evils and the sufferings. There is no special regard, no more or less desirable states in nature. We define these terms for our short term realities; hence they are bound to fail to integrate to the conitnuum of reality.

I've probably understood this little bit, but what I have absolutely no clue about is, how do I accept it?

Quotable Quotes

Everything is vague to a degree you do not realize till you have tried to make it precise. - Bertrand Russell

Could you recognize the music?!

The ever so false hope

Who assured that there will be a global justice? Nobody. Yet, that’s what all my ethics is based on. What gives me this so deep-seated expectation for kindness in nature? I don’t know. But it does shape the way I think and act. If both of these are actually wrong, I can’t even begin to comprehend the level of foolishness and ignorance I live in.

One thing for certain, I cannot rule out the existence of sufferings in our reality. However I am at least theoretically ready to accept that all my ethics could be incorrect (if there is a globally correct one) or even inconsistent within the self. But, whatever it is, the existence of large scale sufferings I’ve already observed, rules out the possibility that, happiness is a necessary holistic expected outcome of the effective ethics in nature.

Something is seriously wrong, for my beliefs to have a scintilla of truth in them.